Things I have learned.

I've Learned That:
* Somethings you do in an instant, Can give you heartache for
Lifetime.
* It's taken me a long time to become the person I want to be.
* You can keep going even after you can't.
* The good you do will be forgotten tomorrow.
* We are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
* Regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first,
When the lust fades there had better be something else in it's place.
* Hero's are people who do what needs to be done, regardless of the
consequences.
* Money is a lousy way of keeping score.
* My husband and I can do anything or nothing and still have the
best time.
* Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
* Maturity has more to do with what you've learned from life
experiences and less to do with how many Birthday's you've
celebrated.
* You're family wont always be there for you,Sometimes it takes a
complete stranger to show you compassion.
* Our past and life circumstances may influence who we are but only
we are responsible for who we become.
* You shouldn't be so eager to know everything, What you find out
could change your life forever.
* just because 2 people argue, doesn't mean they don't love each
other. Just because they don't argue doesn't mean they do.
* Your life can change in a moment by someone you've never even
met.

Random Thoughts

I feel so big This week, The baby is very high and when he stretches out I feel like he is climbing out of my throat.
I have been having contractions for the last few weeks which really freaks people out but I get dehydrated very easily and that among other things send me into false labor. This is my forth baby and I have dilated early for all of them, so I am not worried.

As it is getting closer and closer to Birth Day, I am slowly trying to get everything together that we need for the babies arrival. After Grace ,we
Gave away or tossed out all of our big items like the swing, high chair, bouncy etc It was all outdated and worn out. Most was broken or just didn't work any longer. Well They did go through a lot with our first three children and were also borrowed out to friends and family.
I am just going to buy what I really need, ( Everything is so cute that it is hard to not get it all ) David wants to buy everything and I just can't see spending that much. If this was are first child I could justify the price because you know it will be used many more times, But this is our forth and I just can't do it. ( David Say's in his awful baby voice: poor baby bean, his Momma wont buy him a new swing ) AR AR AR! Not funny!

On a different note: I spoke with my Grandfather recently ( long pause ) exhale. This is such a hard situation. My Grandmother is in the hospital and has had a lot of health issue's lately, I Have not seen them both in quite sometime and I just wanted them to know that I was thinking of them both and Love them very much. Speaking to him reminded me that You don't have to be apart of someones everyday life to have love for them. You don't even have to be able to explain why you love them. you Love them just because you do! Sometimes it really is OK to just step back and say, I just need a break from everything that's going on and it's OK to not always make the right decision or do the smartest thing. People that Love you will Love you regardless of what other's say or any error's in judgement I might make. You can't force yourself to Love right? either there's Love or there isn't I guess it really is that simple.
It was a very nice conversation. My Grandparents are good people and they have always been kind to me my whole life no matter what ( and to my Husband and children ) I will always have nothing but Love and respect for them both.

Grace's 3rd Birthday.

Grace's Birthday was so much fun and busy busy. For months she has been telling everyone that will listen, that her birthday is coming up and she is going to build a bear. So you can only imagine how excited she was the morning of her birthday.

She woke up and came into my room. ( I pretended to still be sleeping ),

She climbed up on the bed and pried open my eyes and said Good Morning Mommy, today is my Birthday! I tell her she is the most beautiful 3 year old I have ever seen.

****Here are some pictures of Grace at build a bear and A video of her birthday cake. The cake started out as a beautiful ice cream cake with blue frosting and colored balloons ( as Grace requested and picked out.) Well I guess when I put the cake in the deep freezer the big bag of ice also in the freezer prevented it from closing all the way. Thank goodness the cake wasn't ruined but it was quite a bit shorter and we had to use a spoon to eat it but Grace loved it and never even noticed the difference.

We just chucked it up to one of those things that happen and we will look back on and laugh. Today will be a memorable one , Now for many reasons.

Happy Birthday Big Girl!

Flashback Video of Grace

Grace is turning 3

My Baby is turning 3 this week. I can't believe how fast the time has gone.

Here are some flash back pictures of my big girl!

4th of July

We spent 4th of July with Family. A cookout at Cousin Bonnie's and Fireworks at Aunt Betsy and Uncle Bill's.

We had such a great time and the kids loved spending time with their cousins. Aunt Betsy bought all the kids nets to catch lighting bugs, The kids really had a blast and have been using them everynight since.

Here are just a few pictures of our day.

Abby's Dance Recital 6/21/08

These are pictures of Abby in her costumes, ( the professional pictures are not in yet ) The girls were so cute. The rehearsal, I thought was long enough but boy That was nothing compared to the actual rehearsal.

since I saw the whole performance for rehearsal, I spent the whole night in the back with Abby and Grace. I came out into the audience when Abby preformed then would run back after. It was so so long That we were all really tired and thankful when it was over but wow, what a memory for David and I. ( Abby Loved every minute of it. )

Avery's Blue Mohawk

Well it's that time again, Avery's Summer Mohawk. Normally I let him have it till Bible school starts but this year I let him keep it longer since there were so many other kids at church with one. This picture is right before his Game and It just happens to be blue to match his team colors.

All that team spirit paid off because he played awesome that night and got the winning game ball.

Potty Trained 6/01/08

Well, Potty training was so easy the first two times I thought for sure Grace would be a nightmare.

This is how it went, I bought Grace new Dora panties and I very casually said to her, When you are ready to wear big girl panties let Mommy know and I will take you to the potty. I Showed her the attachment I hooked to the big Potty and she said ok Mommy. That whole day she did not say a word. The next morning I woke up to use the restroom and to my very happy surprise, Grace is sitting on the potty. That was it, from that point on she has been going in the potty everytime. It has been so easy all three times and I have really heard horrible stories of potty training from other parents but I think what has worked for us is that I wait till they are ready and most important is not to use pull ups ( They are really just expensive Diapers ). We are so proud of her and she is just so grown up about it, She say's the diapers are for Baby Bean when he comes out of momma's Belly.

Above is a picture of Grace helping Daddy. We are remodeling all of our bathrooms floor to ceiling. The kid's wanted to help with everything.

Last Day of School. 5-30-08

Hooray!! I am so excited to have the kids back, I've missed them so much.

I went back and forth between Avery and Abby's class to help out with their parties. The kids and I made Grab Bags to hand out for their friends with goodies inside. It was very exciting but sad to see it end. I cant believe I have a Third grader and A first Grader, Unbelievable.

On Friday Abby Had her Kindergarten Graduation, It was so emotional for me and many other parent's, To see her growing up so fast and becoming very independent, really is incredible to watch. I had the ugly cry through most of the ceremony. This was an amazing day with wonderful memories.

Yippee for Summer Break!!!

Our 10 Year Anniversary. 5/23/08

We celebrated our 10 Year Wedding Anniversary in Gatlinburg TN. We have always said that we would renew our Promises somewhere in the Smoky Mountains, That's what we did. We Had such a fun time, but we always do. Before we left David gave me roses and the kids and I had chocolate made for him at Anthony Thomas Candy. ( The kids love going there for the tour of the factory. ) We have been there many times for a field trip with other home schooled kids in previous years. If you have not been there you really should . We came back Memorial Day and Opened the pool and Had a cookout in the back Yard.

David and I Both feel very lucky to have found each other at a time in our lives when no one else could be trusted. I do believe that things really do happen for a reason, What you choose to do next is really what"s Important. Apart from my children, David is the only one in my life that has ever really loved me, warts and all. We Have had an eventful 10 year's, Some really Great and some not so much but We Truly wouldn't change a single thing!

Oh how I hate Hypocrites.

There is nothing I hate worse then a hypocrite! Someone who gives a false opinion to other's to make themselves look better or to gain something selfishly in return. I know several people like this. They are related,

Which makes sense I guess. They must realize how small and weak they look to rational people.I mean come on, grow some balls. Life is to short to spend it pretending. It really is OK to have your own opinion! Really. It's OK if not everyone agrees with you, that's what makes it your opinion!!! What is not OK - are those people that make excuses for their actions and put the blame on other's. ( I hate to break it to you but it is so obvious who's at fault. Come on there are so many mistakes to choose from and you have left a trail of destruction in your path! ) When you make a mistake, Just admit it. ( and for the love of God Learn from it already ) but don't make excuses or say you did or didn't do something because of someone else. It is so childish.

Peace....

Indian Village 5/2/08

Avery and I went to Indian Village with his 2nd Grade class today.

We made a beaver Dam and got really dirty, We also got to make animal tracks with plaster. We had such a great time there and I loved spending the day with Avery and His friends. I can't imagine being a parent and not wanting to experience all of this with my kid, Seeing his face, the excitement and Interest is really incredible to me and I am so Thankful I was able to be apart of this with him.

OUR ROCKSTAR

It's a Boy!!!

We are so so excited! what more can you ask,

2 boys and 2 girls ( perfect)the new ultrasounds are so cool, we got to watch the baby for 1 hour and the kids were just so Happy.

Thoughts

We have not heard the baby's heartbeat yet because we have been trying to go through this pregnancy in a very natural and relaxed way,( HUH ) Well it was fine until a couple of days ago when we were talking about our up coming ultrasound and I started to panic. What if something is wrong?, With our other children I heard their heartbeat at about 6 weeks and the one pregnancy that I didn't, Had a very sad ending.

Our ultrasound is in 2 day's and It looks as though The kid's have their heart set on finding out the sex. I was apprehensive at first but now that It is so close , I am really excited!


I want to also add that my cousin was killed April 10Th Risking her life for another, I can only hope that when God calls on me that I can leave behind such wonderful memory's and Love to my children as she so obviously did for her daughter. I know an Angel in Heaven and I'm sure she greeted Dianna at the gate and their probably sitting some where right now on a cloud watching GVC. Thank You Dianna for your bravery, I just know Best Maw will take care of you.



SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down. Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.The music won't last.

Do you run through each day On the fly?
When you ask How are you? Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done Do you lie in your bed With the next hundred chores Running through your head?

You'd better slow down Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.The music won't last.

Ever told your child, We'll do it tomorrow
And in your haste, Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time To call and say Hi.

You'd better slow down. Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift thrown away.

Life is not a race. Do take it slower
Hear the music Before the song is over.

More of Cayden

Here are some more picture's of Cayden. One is of him wearing the overall's we got for him. There is also one of his first bath, that Susi said he was not the least bit Happy about. Finally some with his eye's open!